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[placation]

Why do you need to?

[devilishkouhai]

BB has a job to do and Inigo can't be a part of that.

He's too weak and kind of pathetic, he lets everyone walk all over him and doesn't seem to have self-awareness of when he needs to say no to things - again a doormat. Also, he is so stupid and gullible with 0 sense of survival. He is so determined to save other people, he lacks any sense of self so because of that!! Inigo is easily going to be someone who wants to throw his life away for other's sake. Meaning he likely will get in BB's way of protecting someone. [ Does not consider protecting her, that is out of the equation. It's not even an afterthought. It is an impossible calculation. ] You know like getting himself hurt in the process of BB's plans and I can't have him doing that.

He's too squishy

you know like soft?

That's why he is so pathetic.

[ Said affectionately. ]

[placation]

I wondered if that might be it. The fear of hurting him, either directly by you or simply because of his proximity to you.

We aren't so different.

[devilishkouhai]

[ BB frowns a bit looking at the text, thinking: No I am nothing like you. I enjoy hurting others. ]

No, its not that. BB is cruel and would enjoy it, if it hurt him. If I hurt him, but if someone else hurts him because of BB - then BB would be angry.

No, no, the only thing BB cares about is whether or not anyone is safe.

Even then, Inigo is not close to BB so it doesn't matter and Maruki-san is right. BB will be straightforward with him and go her separate ways.

[placation]

Hm...

It sounds like he's close to you. And you wouldn't be panicked or scared if he wasn't.

[devilishkouhai]

It's complicated.

[placation]

I don't doubt that.

Do you want my advice?

[devilishkouhai]

Maybe what is it?

[placation]

Don't push him away just yet. Give it some more time. Have a little faith in him and see how he handles it. He just might surprise you.

That's also frightening to do, I know. But do it anyway. We never grow if we aren't sometimes scared.

[devilishkouhai]

[ BB doesn't like it, feeling herself suddenly much smaller in the grand scheme of things. Not because of her ego that, doesn't want to be made smaller than it is. It is more about feeling helpless in a situation, and knowing what inevitably could be. ]


And what if BB swallows the last bit of him whole? What then?

BB isn't afraid of what he can say to her, or what he may think. BB is BB.

I only want to do what is right by humans, acknowledging that I am an entity that is not like them at all.

I play with them, I toy with them, and I eat them if I want.

[ A prompted pause between texts. ]

BB is only scared, because, what if BB does change him?

What if BB changes you?

In a way that is no longer you.

[ Is taking care of humans, effectively, taking part with them and altering their lives permanently not from a 3rd perspective - but an immediate one. Where she is equal to them, and no different. Where she is truly their friend and not their caregiver? ]

[placation]

[ It's funny, really. The reason Maruki can't demonstrate his true ability here is that same fear: Changing someone in a way that they are no longer themselves. A healed heart, an ideal perception of reality. It may as well kill off the person that once was. ]

That's a fear I understand better than you might expect.

We all change one another. I've been irrevocably changed by a few of the people I've met here, the things we've gone through. I am no longer the Maruki Takuto who was dozing off on the subway on Christmas Eve. If he appeared here tomorrow and took my place, you wouldn't recognize him. I am not him, but I'm still myself.

I know that isn't exactly what you're talking about, but it felt worth mentioning.

The self is a stronger concept than many people think it is. It takes a lot to alter it into something totally unrecognizable. You may never be able to get to that point here. Who knows?

Either way, you will not do that to me. I won't allow it. I can't speak for anyone else, but I hope that knowing there is one person who you can't break and reform is some small comfort. (Or a challenge! I welcome you to try.)

[devilishkouhai]

[ It is hard being her, but she doesn't care that it is. Doesn't care that everyone misunderstands her, and even plays around with those perceptions, but for once she is glad to know what it is like to be understood - if only a little bit. ]

If BB came from before, she would be exactly the same. If BB came from the future, she would be exactly the same.

Humans are mean't to foster growth with one another, BB is an AI and her place is within the Moon watching over humanity until they can no longer move forward. BB does not change and will not change.

BB knows Inigo is the kind of person who is going to want BB to change into someone else and I can't do that.

I don't want to waste my time, and I don't need to play around with humans and their weak hearts that way.

It's enough for BB, how it is now.

[placation]

[ Guy who has only managed to become close to his three most important people because he's the only one who doesn't try to change them says what? ]

I would hope that Inigo-kun would like you for you, and not try to change you.

What makes you think that he will?

[devilishkouhai]

[ BB: Oh thank god me too finally someone who gets it. ]

You don't think he wont?

Want to bet on it Maruki-san?

[placation]

No. I'm too risk averse for gambling.

I just think you ought to give him a fair shot to prove you wrong first. If he doesn't, then walk away. But he can't win a race he's never allowed to start.

[devilishkouhai]

Okay when BB is right she will come over and put Maruki-san in a box and shake it around a bunch nonstop!

[ It's fine she decided the bet. ]

Then if you win, you can make BB into a permanent BB statue for your room ~ (๑>؂•̀๑)!

[placation]

[ God, she's so funny. MARUKI IS GENUINELY LAUGHING. What a strange creature... ]

Sounds good.

Until then, keep me updated, okay?

[ ... : ) ]

I need to know if Somnius gets a new "canon ship," after all!

Did I use that term right...?

[devilishkouhai]

BB AND INIGO WILL NEVER BE A SHIP!! BB WILL MAKE SURE ABOUT IT!!!

[ She is definitely bright red and throwing her phone across the room. ]

GUNNA START CALLING YOU GRANDPA IF YOU DONT START ACTING YOUR AGE!

[placation]

[ CACKLING ABOUT IT, HONESTLY! ]

Grandpa would probably be more accurate.

Please excuse me while I go update my own chart in light of these new developments between BB-san and Inigo-kun. It's better than a drama...!

[ He does not have a chart. He just likes to troll sometimes. ]

[devilishkouhai]

SINCE WHEN DO YOU HAVE A CHART???

[ God she believes him. ]

No its daddy for the sexual innuendo that comes with it.

[placation]

I had to make my own since you didn't let me see yours!

[devilishkouhai]

LOSER!! As if, I bet you can't even look at a manga of two dudes kissing without crying about it.

1/2 actually

[placation]

[ Crying about it for what reason, that's the real question... ]

Ah, BB-san is so judgmental of Maruki-sensei for no reason...

oh my god they're dumb

[placation]

Called a crybaby and a loser by the great BB-san... How can I go on!?

SDF NSDK FS LMAO

[devilishkouhai]

[ And just like that. ]

Yeah that's right, know your place daddy in BB-chans little kawaii kokoro! If you keep messing with her she's going to ship you off with more horrible otps.