[ BB doesn't like it, feeling herself suddenly much smaller in the grand scheme of things. Not because of her ego that, doesn't want to be made smaller than it is. It is more about feeling helpless in a situation, and knowing what inevitably could be. ]
And what if BB swallows the last bit of him whole? What then?
BB isn't afraid of what he can say to her, or what he may think. BB is BB.
I only want to do what is right by humans, acknowledging that I am an entity that is not like them at all.
I play with them, I toy with them, and I eat them if I want.
[ A prompted pause between texts. ]
BB is only scared, because, what if BB does change him?
What if BB changes you?
In a way that is no longer you.
[ Is taking care of humans, effectively, taking part with them and altering their lives permanently not from a 3rd perspective - but an immediate one. Where she is equal to them, and no different. Where she is truly their friend and not their caregiver? ]
[ It's funny, really. The reason Maruki can't demonstrate his true ability here is that same fear: Changing someone in a way that they are no longer themselves. A healed heart, an ideal perception of reality. It may as well kill off the person that once was. ]
That's a fear I understand better than you might expect.
We all change one another. I've been irrevocably changed by a few of the people I've met here, the things we've gone through. I am no longer the Maruki Takuto who was dozing off on the subway on Christmas Eve. If he appeared here tomorrow and took my place, you wouldn't recognize him. I am not him, but I'm still myself.
I know that isn't exactly what you're talking about, but it felt worth mentioning.
The self is a stronger concept than many people think it is. It takes a lot to alter it into something totally unrecognizable. You may never be able to get to that point here. Who knows?
Either way, you will not do that to me. I won't allow it. I can't speak for anyone else, but I hope that knowing there is one person who you can't break and reform is some small comfort. (Or a challenge! I welcome you to try.)
[ It is hard being her, but she doesn't care that it is. Doesn't care that everyone misunderstands her, and even plays around with those perceptions, but for once she is glad to know what it is like to be understood - if only a little bit. ]
If BB came from before, she would be exactly the same. If BB came from the future, she would be exactly the same.
Humans are mean't to foster growth with one another, BB is an AI and her place is within the Moon watching over humanity until they can no longer move forward. BB does not change and will not change.
BB knows Inigo is the kind of person who is going to want BB to change into someone else and I can't do that.
I don't want to waste my time, and I don't need to play around with humans and their weak hearts that way.
I just think you ought to give him a fair shot to prove you wrong first. If he doesn't, then walk away. But he can't win a race he's never allowed to start.
Yeah that's right, know your place daddy in BB-chans little kawaii kokoro! If you keep messing with her she's going to ship you off with more horrible otps.
Hhuuhuhuh okay BB will tell you, it's Sakura x Hakuno ! You don't know anything about them though so don't even bother trying to figure it out. (๑>•̀๑)
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And what if BB swallows the last bit of him whole? What then?
BB isn't afraid of what he can say to her, or what he may think. BB is BB.
I only want to do what is right by humans, acknowledging that I am an entity that is not like them at all.
I play with them, I toy with them, and I eat them if I want.
[ A prompted pause between texts. ]
BB is only scared, because, what if BB does change him?
What if BB changes you?
In a way that is no longer you.
[ Is taking care of humans, effectively, taking part with them and altering their lives permanently not from a 3rd perspective - but an immediate one. Where she is equal to them, and no different. Where she is truly their friend and not their caregiver? ]
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That's a fear I understand better than you might expect.
We all change one another. I've been irrevocably changed by a few of the people I've met here, the things we've gone through. I am no longer the Maruki Takuto who was dozing off on the subway on Christmas Eve. If he appeared here tomorrow and took my place, you wouldn't recognize him. I am not him, but I'm still myself.
I know that isn't exactly what you're talking about, but it felt worth mentioning.
The self is a stronger concept than many people think it is. It takes a lot to alter it into something totally unrecognizable. You may never be able to get to that point here. Who knows?
Either way, you will not do that to me. I won't allow it. I can't speak for anyone else, but I hope that knowing there is one person who you can't break and reform is some small comfort. (Or a challenge! I welcome you to try.)
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If BB came from before, she would be exactly the same. If BB came from the future, she would be exactly the same.
Humans are mean't to foster growth with one another, BB is an AI and her place is within the Moon watching over humanity until they can no longer move forward. BB does not change and will not change.
BB knows Inigo is the kind of person who is going to want BB to change into someone else and I can't do that.
I don't want to waste my time, and I don't need to play around with humans and their weak hearts that way.
It's enough for BB, how it is now.
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I would hope that Inigo-kun would like you for you, and not try to change you.
What makes you think that he will?
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You don't think he wont?
Want to bet on it Maruki-san?
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I just think you ought to give him a fair shot to prove you wrong first. If he doesn't, then walk away. But he can't win a race he's never allowed to start.
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[ It's fine she decided the bet. ]
Then if you win, you can make BB into a permanent BB statue for your room ~ (๑>•̀๑)!
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Sounds good.
Until then, keep me updated, okay?
[ ... : ) ]
I need to know if Somnius gets a new "canon ship," after all!
Did I use that term right...?
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[ She is definitely bright red and throwing her phone across the room. ]
GUNNA START CALLING YOU GRANDPA IF YOU DONT START ACTING YOUR AGE!
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Grandpa would probably be more accurate.
Please excuse me while I go update my own chart in light of these new developments between BB-san and Inigo-kun. It's better than a drama...!
[ He does not have a chart. He just likes to troll sometimes. ]
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[ God she believes him. ]
No its daddy for the sexual innuendo that comes with it.
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1/2 actually
Ah, BB-san is so judgmental of Maruki-sensei for no reason...
oh my god they're dumb
SDF NSDK FS LMAO
Yeah that's right, know your place daddy in BB-chans little kawaii kokoro! If you keep messing with her she's going to ship you off with more horrible otps.
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"otp"?
[ He's learning new things today!!! ]
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[ Said like that is a threat. ]
One true Pairing youre so behind.
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Huh. "OTP." Interesting concept.
Who is yours?
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does this mean i call her mommy now then?
huh my otp?
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[ Sorry, Venat!!! ]
Yes. Who is yours?
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Cross universes!
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