Ymir wanted freedom. In the end, she wanted revenge. I don't blame her. I still remember her as clearly as any friend I've ever known.
She built our bodies by hand, day in and day out for all of infinite time. She made us who we are. She's a demon to them, and maybe that's true, but she's right to be for all they've done. [She wanted it as badly as Eren did. She, too, understood him in a way that no one else could.]
The ability to shift into titans lives in Eldian blood, but it was only accesssed by Marleyians injecting spinal fluid into our goddamn veins as punishment for dirty devil blood.
If it's a goddamn curse, good. CURSE THOSE MISERABLE FUCKING BASTARDS.
Thank you for explaining it to me - I do feel I understand you and what your people went through better now. Your anger is valid, but you need to take a step back from where you're at right now and breathe.
[Maruki's right, judging by how long it takes Eren to even process the words he's reading. His mind is a blur of memories yet again - hers, despite him being unable to access the Founder's power, be close to her again.
[This is something Maruki will probably never understand, though, maybe one day, Eren should ask...
[It takes him quite a while to respond; all this while lying still in bed - he's getting good at exploding quietly.]
[Some familiar shame threatens to encroach - he shouldn't be thinking that way, but he does. He'd never admit it to Jean (though he knows), Levi (though he probably knows), Erwin (though he suspects); wouldn't admit it to almost anyone, really.
[Subaru. Maruki. Akechi. That's it...
[Maruki isn't shaming Eren, though. "Good work," he says.]
Don't tell him I told you this, but since the very first week I opened, Akechi has booked the last appointment of the week. He won't ever admit it, but he does it just so I can take a break. I usually fall asleep then too.
Not in a bed. At Eyn Sof, I just pass out and completely go black for an hour or two. A few days ago, I fell asleep in the road. A couple days after that, I fell asleep on the floor in Armin's room. I don't know.
I've always slept better next to someone else, but [It can't be her.] I just can't lately.
No, I don't think that's something it can actually do for me or anyone else. It's probably more like my mind is still adjusting... or something. I'm not sure. It's a complicated feeling.
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cw: intense fictional racism, fictional slurs, crimes against humanity, truly horrific shit
It's only the curse that they made it.
Ymir wanted freedom. In the end, she wanted revenge. I don't blame her. I still remember her as clearly as any friend I've ever known.
She built our bodies by hand, day in and day out for all of infinite time. She made us who we are. She's a demon to them, and maybe that's true, but she's right to be for all they've done. [She wanted it as badly as Eren did. She, too, understood him in a way that no one else could.]
The ability to shift into titans lives in Eldian blood, but it was only accesssed by Marleyians injecting spinal fluid into our goddamn veins as punishment for dirty devil blood.
If it's a goddamn curse, good. CURSE THOSE MISERABLE FUCKING BASTARDS.
CW EREN JAEGER
Thank you for explaining it to me - I do feel I understand you and what your people went through better now. Your anger is valid, but you need to take a step back from where you're at right now and breathe.
lmk if u need more~
[This is something Maruki will probably never understand, though, maybe one day, Eren should ask...
[It takes him quite a while to respond; all this while lying still in bed - he's getting good at exploding quietly.]
Okay.
i never do :3c
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Good work.
You're too important to me to run so hot that you burn yourself out.
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[Subaru. Maruki. Akechi. That's it...
[Maruki isn't shaming Eren, though. "Good work," he says.]
I keep waiting to burn out.
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Don't tell him I told you this, but since the very first week I opened, Akechi has booked the last appointment of the week. He won't ever admit it, but he does it just so I can take a break. I usually fall asleep then too.
We all need our rest.
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Akechi does that for you?
He wouldn't admit that. You're right.
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And you've brought me lunch every day since that week too. You're both extremely helpful. I'm so grateful.
But... you're not sleeping much otherwise, huh?
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I try to. I wish I could. But I don't expect it anymore, so I guess it's not that bad.
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I've always slept better next to someone else, but [It can't be her.] I just can't lately.
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That's all understandable.
I'm just asking because I've noticed you cry a bit in your sleep.
I don't mind it! I'm not trying to embarrass you or anything. I just wonder if that's making your sleep less restful...
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I've always done that, actually.
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Yeah. Everyone used to tease me about it. I guess I've always had bad dreams, but I didn't use to remember them much.
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As long as it isn't a new thing though, it's fine. I just hadn't seen you sleep so much before so it worried me!
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[That's why he's always napped so goddamn much. He really does run on pure spite and nothing else 99% of the time.]
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Well, my own sleep habits are terrible, so I'm not about to lecture you. Just come nap here whenever you want.
Strangely, though, I don't dream now that Azathoth has returned to me. You would think that would make sleep more restful, but...
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LITTLE HAT
Sorry. I didn't mean to give you false hope.
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I just wonder sometimes how Azathoth works.
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It's still new to me. Before the Green Knight, I didn't even know it could battle. But if you ever have questions, I can try to figure them out.
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I haven't gotten to learn all that much about other people's powers here.
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