He knows how to live with no one and he knows how to live with nothing.
And it's too fitting of a reminder. It's thinking he had a home only to be set on a curbside. It's thinking he had a mother only to lose her in the same breath. It's being on the cusp of believing someone who said they would go back together only to recognize that there's no one left to say it.
Akechi Goro knows nothing. Akechi Goro knows there's no one.
He knows it. Knew it. Knew it. He knew Maruki wasn't strong enough, couldn't do it, didn't fully believe the promise he said to a disbelieving boy again and again and again-
Because he's a liar. Of course he's a liar. He took a small boy in his arms and promised a home. He placed a hand on his back and promised a path.
Akechi Goro was an idiot. Akechi Goro should have known. Akechi Goro spent his youth learning the miniscule value of trust.
It was his fault for mustering up a drop to give. The months made him weak, pathetic, craving and yearning and grasping at a connection from-
A liar. Maruki is a liar. Akechi is liar who deserves to see nothing and no one in the memory of promise given.
Maruki is gone.
Maruki is gone.
Maruki is gone.
Akechi will stay.
Akechi doesn't want to stay.
Akechi doesn't want to be here and stay in empty rooms that don't have broken rafters to count because he left.
He left.
It's a punishment. Akechi's here. Maruki left. Maruki left without him and he won't be back.
They won't meet up.
Another year may span between them and Akechi doesn't care if they ever meet up.
He should have killed him.
He should have killed him.
He should have killed him.
He should have killed him while he had the chance to kill him and maybe he should have made it look like the world killed him by setting a gun in his palm his neck in a noose his neck in a noose his neck should be in a noose Akechi wants to hear it snap in a noose and see a body dangle from a ceiling too worn to hold him up and maybe it would feel better if he could see that body dangle from a ceiling tinted blue too worn from the world that took and took and took and Akechi took and Akechi took because Akechi takes and it's a curse that- ]
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cw: violent thoughts, murder, suicide, ohhh its bad
He knows how to live with no one and he knows how to live with nothing.
And it's too fitting of a reminder. It's thinking he had a home only to be set on a curbside. It's thinking he had a mother only to lose her in the same breath. It's being on the cusp of believing someone who said they would go back together only to recognize that there's no one left to say it.
Akechi Goro knows nothing. Akechi Goro knows there's no one.
He knows it. Knew it. Knew it. He knew Maruki wasn't strong enough, couldn't do it, didn't fully believe the promise he said to a disbelieving boy again and again and again-
Because he's a liar. Of course he's a liar. He took a small boy in his arms and promised a home. He placed a hand on his back and promised a path.
Akechi Goro was an idiot. Akechi Goro should have known. Akechi Goro spent his youth learning the miniscule value of trust.
It was his fault for mustering up a drop to give. The months made him weak, pathetic, craving and yearning and grasping at a connection from-
A liar. Maruki is a liar. Akechi is liar who deserves to see nothing and no one in the memory of promise given.
Maruki is gone.
Maruki is gone.
Maruki is gone.
Akechi will stay.
Akechi doesn't want to stay.
Akechi doesn't want to be here and stay in empty rooms that don't have broken rafters to count because he left.
He left.
It's a punishment. Akechi's here. Maruki left. Maruki left without him and he won't be back.
They won't meet up.
Another year may span between them and Akechi doesn't care if they ever meet up.
He should have killed him.
He should have killed him.
He should have killed him while he had the chance to kill him and maybe he should have made it look like the world killed him by setting a gun in his palm his neck in a noose his neck in a noose his neck should be in a noose Akechi wants to hear it snap in a noose and see a body dangle from a ceiling too worn to hold him up and maybe it would feel better if he could see that body dangle from a ceiling tinted blue too worn from the world that took and took and took and Akechi took and Akechi took because Akechi takes and it's a curse that- ]