When I say sorry because I'm having a difficult time, you tell me I shouldn't apologize.
[It's a text; gentle, nonetheless.]
You're important to me. You're one of the most important people there is.
For a long time, I felt like this place was an interruption to my life. Being here so long, now, I guess that really isn't true.
If I'd met you six months ago, or somewhere in my reality, I'm not sure if it would have changed anything. If there had been two people like me in that place, I think we probably would have ended up destroying each other.
[But that's what friends do, right?]
I'm glad I met you.
There's a promise I made with Subaru. There are things that only he understands, too. In that way, we promised that we wouldn't allow each other to carry it alone, anymore.
I made a promise with Kanoa, too. That when the emptiness is too much, we'll come to one another. Two empty people. It's just better than being the only one.
I'll promise you, too. You aren't alone anymore. I know that it's your job to help me, but only two hours a week. The rest of the time, you can rely on me, too.
So, no. You shouldn't apologize. I'm glad you told me.
[ Unconditional care and acceptance. He can dole it out in spades; receiving it in return is a different beast. Maruki doesn't know what to do with it. For a long time he only reads and rereads Eren's words. Tries to commit them to memory. Tucks them against his beleaguered heart.
He let himself cry in front of Akechi, if only briefly. He opened himself up to loving Venat. Two things that felt insurmountable to achieve with anyone ever again after that day that he left Rumi's hospital room alone. And now, here with Eren, the third impossible task suddenly becomes possible:
He asks for help. ]
Thank you. I mean that sincerely. I promise too. You won't be alone in this ever again.
I don't know that I have it in me to convincingly pretend I'm doing well around anyone today, but I think I would feel worse if I were alone.
Could I come spend some time with you? I don't care what we do. You can be a bird, if you'd like. I don't need to talk about anything. I'd just like the company, and the understanding.
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[It's a text; gentle, nonetheless.]
You're important to me. You're one of the most important people there is.
For a long time, I felt like this place was an interruption to my life. Being here so long, now, I guess that really isn't true.
If I'd met you six months ago, or somewhere in my reality, I'm not sure if it would have changed anything. If there had been two people like me in that place, I think we probably would have ended up destroying each other.
[But that's what friends do, right?]
I'm glad I met you.
There's a promise I made with Subaru. There are things that only he understands, too. In that way, we promised that we wouldn't allow each other to carry it alone, anymore.
I made a promise with Kanoa, too. That when the emptiness is too much, we'll come to one another. Two empty people. It's just better than being the only one.
I'll promise you, too. You aren't alone anymore. I know that it's your job to help me, but only two hours a week. The rest of the time, you can rely on me, too.
So, no. You shouldn't apologize. I'm glad you told me.
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He let himself cry in front of Akechi, if only briefly. He opened himself up to loving Venat. Two things that felt insurmountable to achieve with anyone ever again after that day that he left Rumi's hospital room alone. And now, here with Eren, the third impossible task suddenly becomes possible:
He asks for help. ]
Thank you. I mean that sincerely. I promise too. You won't be alone in this ever again.
I don't know that I have it in me to convincingly pretend I'm doing well around anyone today, but I think I would feel worse if I were alone.
Could I come spend some time with you? I don't care what we do. You can be a bird, if you'd like. I don't need to talk about anything. I'd just like the company, and the understanding.
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Let's meet outside of Eyn Sof. I can leave now.
I'd rather take some photos than fly around, if that's alright with you.
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Thanks, Eren. I'm glad I met you too.