It's a difficult balance to strike, that's all. Ensuring that I'm able to help others while not ignoring my own needs the way I'd been for years. I'm still getting used to people knowing that I need anything at all. So to hear it described negatively was a little jarring, that's all.
Knives won't have his powers right now, but I'm sure he'll get them soon. I don't remember many incidents but he doesn't remember anything about this place.
At this point, Vash is most likely to tell you how he's feeling. I'll do my best for him, but I know he tries not to trouble me with anything, much less show that he's troubled at all.
It's so odd. For someone with a pathological avoidance of emotional hurts for most of his life, someone whose shattered dream revolved around a painless reality for all, he should agree with that sentiment.
But it feels fortunate, really. To be surrounded by so many people who not only don't give up when things are hard, but double down. He's become a more resilient person because of them. How can he ever repay them? ]
Hey.
I'm glad Vash told you he loves you. I bet it's been true for a long time.
[ he softens. it was so unexpected and yet — it was natural to be here. maybe to be loved. and he is loved so much. his mistakes will persist, but they're not the end. and he has his own agency still, do what he can. what he must. what he always would. ]
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It's not okay, even if I was hurting. Especially if it's bothering you.
You would never tell anyone off for needing more. Are you afraid of it when it comes to yourself?
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It's a difficult balance to strike, that's all. Ensuring that I'm able to help others while not ignoring my own needs the way I'd been for years. I'm still getting used to people knowing that I need anything at all. So to hear it described negatively was a little jarring, that's all.
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Then it was doubly cruel of me. And sorry feels a bit short, no matter how shitty I was feeling then.
It'd be okay if you don't want to forgive me for it.
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But being able to tell you that it hurt is huge in and of itself. Thank you for letting me be honest.
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Always. So you can always be honest with me.
I didn't pick a part of you. I picked the whole of you.
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I'll always be honest. I promise.
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Knives won't have his powers right now, but I'm sure he'll get them soon. I don't remember many incidents but he doesn't remember anything about this place.
And my priority is Vash anyway.
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But keep me posted.
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At this point, Vash is most likely to tell you how he's feeling. I'll do my best for him, but I know he tries not to trouble me with anything, much less show that he's troubled at all.
So, if he's really struggling... please tell me.
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[ vash shouldn't lean only on him. dolph is glad he does, but the more people there are, the better it is. he knows that much from experience. ]
It'll be bumpy.
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But we're at our best when the road is difficult, aren't we?
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throws a lil wrap on this..... for flavor
It's so odd. For someone with a pathological avoidance of emotional hurts for most of his life, someone whose shattered dream revolved around a painless reality for all, he should agree with that sentiment.
But it feels fortunate, really. To be surrounded by so many people who not only don't give up when things are hard, but double down. He's become a more resilient person because of them. How can he ever repay them? ]
Hey.
I'm glad Vash told you he loves you. I bet it's been true for a long time.
<3
Me too.