It's complicated. Maruki isn't in the habit of playing victim, especially not publicly – he has taken the highest road imaginable in every possible interaction over this fine mess. Despite the fact that it was his office compromised, his life's work put in jeopardy, his patients whose privacy was violated, Maruki simply will not have anyone given any ammunition to say that he's trying to turn public opinion in his favor or garner pity. All he wants is some measure of justice for his patients. That's it.
But by that same token– he feels like shit. Of course he does. How could he not?
Those who know the extent of it are few and far between. There is a reason he's isolating out on this farm. And he easily could have told Hythlodaeus that they would catch up in a few days, when his nerves are less raw, but he allowed him to come here, to see him in one of his weakest states.
There is a baseline level of trust there, which is more than Maruki feels for most people. So he owes him some measure of honesty, if not the whole miserable party of it that Eren has received. ]
To be honest with you, Hythlodaeus-san, I'm pretty bruised over everything. There's still no telling what the status is of any recordings that were made, and I don't expect that to be addressed any time soon. Most everyone's concerns now seem to lie elsewhere.
[ He doesn't blame himself for Webby's disappearance at all. Her reactions are her own. Despite what most everyone in Somnius seems to think, he didn't hold a gun to her head and tell her to run or die. Choices were made, and actions have consequences. ]
It's a stressful situation, but there's not much that I can do about it at the moment. What a state to live in, huh?
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[ That's the question, isn't it?
It's complicated. Maruki isn't in the habit of playing victim, especially not publicly – he has taken the highest road imaginable in every possible interaction over this fine mess. Despite the fact that it was his office compromised, his life's work put in jeopardy, his patients whose privacy was violated, Maruki simply will not have anyone given any ammunition to say that he's trying to turn public opinion in his favor or garner pity. All he wants is some measure of justice for his patients. That's it.
But by that same token– he feels like shit. Of course he does. How could he not?
Those who know the extent of it are few and far between. There is a reason he's isolating out on this farm. And he easily could have told Hythlodaeus that they would catch up in a few days, when his nerves are less raw, but he allowed him to come here, to see him in one of his weakest states.
There is a baseline level of trust there, which is more than Maruki feels for most people. So he owes him some measure of honesty, if not the whole miserable party of it that Eren has received. ]
To be honest with you, Hythlodaeus-san, I'm pretty bruised over everything. There's still no telling what the status is of any recordings that were made, and I don't expect that to be addressed any time soon. Most everyone's concerns now seem to lie elsewhere.
[ He doesn't blame himself for Webby's disappearance at all. Her reactions are her own. Despite what most everyone in Somnius seems to think, he didn't hold a gun to her head and tell her to run or die. Choices were made, and actions have consequences. ]
It's a stressful situation, but there's not much that I can do about it at the moment. What a state to live in, huh?