[Eren breathes. His knees are up by his chest now, and he lays his arms across them, resting his head on its side with his cheek pressed up against his arm.
[It's pitiful.]
Ever since I got here...it seems like something...is always changing my life for good. It keeps happening. [His next few words come out small, squeezed.] It won't stop...
And everyone...everyone...just tells me I have to...[Abrupt frustration. Eren makes a sharp sound, scrubbing his hands roughly through his hair.] I don't know what they want me to do!
Live a life, but that's not enough. Going to work and training and fighting the world aren't enough. So, what? I have to wake up every day - I have to live every day - and I also have to smile about it? I can't...
[He's sunk in on himself again, hiding his face in his arms.]
I know...that all I do...is bring people down...
Worse. I know. I know, but I can't...I can't...[He struggles for words. There are none. He doesn't even know what he's failing to do. He just is.
[Eventually, he finds them - small, high, barely forced out, muffled severely by his arm. No one could blame Maruki for struggling to understand.] Even her...all she wanted was my happiness...but I couldn't...I can't...
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[Eren breathes. His knees are up by his chest now, and he lays his arms across them, resting his head on its side with his cheek pressed up against his arm.
[It's pitiful.]
Ever since I got here...it seems like something...is always changing my life for good. It keeps happening. [His next few words come out small, squeezed.] It won't stop...
And everyone...everyone...just tells me I have to...[Abrupt frustration. Eren makes a sharp sound, scrubbing his hands roughly through his hair.] I don't know what they want me to do!
Live a life, but that's not enough. Going to work and training and fighting the world aren't enough. So, what? I have to wake up every day - I have to live every day - and I also have to smile about it? I can't...
[He's sunk in on himself again, hiding his face in his arms.]
I know...that all I do...is bring people down...
Worse. I know. I know, but I can't...I can't...[He struggles for words. There are none. He doesn't even know what he's failing to do. He just is.
[Eventually, he finds them - small, high, barely forced out, muffled severely by his arm. No one could blame Maruki for struggling to understand.] Even her...all she wanted was my happiness...but I couldn't...I can't...