[ dolph sucks in a quiet breath. his voice is muted as he wraps his arms around maruki. he burns warm due to the machinery in his arm. maruki already knows but. ]
Me too.
[ alex. as always, his thoughts drift towards him. his hands. that smile. the way his long hair would fan out. the bristles of his beard against dolph's skin. so many precious memories. ]
The sex was good, but. Sometimes we'd just stay in bed for hours. He was . . . the first person to ever hold me. He never left bruises. I didn't even know it was possible to be held like that. I craved it. Sometimes he'd lie there and I could hold his face in my hands, touch it all . . .
I didn't think my hands could do that. My hands — that have only ever hurt people.
[ dolph sighs against maruki's hair, tousling it. ]
I just wanted to be that. That person. Who could touch and hold.
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Me too.
[ alex. as always, his thoughts drift towards him. his hands. that smile. the way his long hair would fan out. the bristles of his beard against dolph's skin. so many precious memories. ]
The sex was good, but. Sometimes we'd just stay in bed for hours. He was . . . the first person to ever hold me. He never left bruises. I didn't even know it was possible to be held like that. I craved it. Sometimes he'd lie there and I could hold his face in my hands, touch it all . . .
I didn't think my hands could do that. My hands — that have only ever hurt people.
[ dolph sighs against maruki's hair, tousling it. ]
I just wanted to be that. That person. Who could touch and hold.
[ and then, his voice cracks. ]
And he took it away from me.